Paranoia

Ever since my phone was stolen a few months ago, my family and I had been very paranoid about the safety and the security of our belongings in this house… especially mine since my father probably think that the thief will always be after my stuff and he’s just looking for a chance to get them. Idk, he’s more scared to lose than I am. I actually need to hide my laptop somewhere every time that I am not using it. I have to make sure that none of my things can be reached through the window… I have to double, triple or four times even, check if the doors are locked and if my windows are secured and closed. My dad placed sensors around this house so that we will be alarmed if something or someone is walking/moving outside our house. Sure, that one small incident held a great deal on us that we have never felt safe putting our things everywhere inside our very own home. I can’t just leave my things unattended in this house more than I leave my laptop on and my bag on my table whenever I need to pee at Starbucks. I don’t know, it feels sad having a home like this… yknow, being afraid in where you should feel safe at. No one would like living in a house with this setting.

I wonder when I would ever feel safe in my own home again because I don’t think that I’ll feel secure even if I choose to move out and live somewhere else… unless its a condominium with only me or a friend living it in. In that way, the only thing I need to check before going to bed is the door… I will not need to check the windows or anywhere else, just the front door and everything would be fine. I hope I could afford to live in a condominium one day because to be honest, if ever I start living on my own and have my own house… I think I will never leave my house ever just because I need to guard my things. GAAAHHH I think I’m going to go crazy because of this.

(Source: effyeahmichelle)

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